it’s like i am pre-meditating pain
my mother arrives march 5, leaves march 8
on march 9 i want to fast again
i don’t care about the reaction, the iv’s, the punishment
because certain things deserve punishment

i need to figure out what will make me happy?
which is perhaps one of the most difficult questions i have ever asked myself
why have i been here six months
because of my behavior
but i can’t change it, or i won’t – whatever

it’s all about choices