i posted my inpatient story both at lunchbox’s private forum and at tf’s private forum that i belong to and i tended to get the response of “it’s your fault, you just need to take accountability for your actions, the hospital isn’t doing anything wrong”

that hurts because it makes me feel like “it’s all in my head” – which hurts because it makes me feel that i am crazier than i thought. i AM taking responsibility for my actions and people assuming that i am not is hurtful. i have made major improvements and the only way you see me is through a looking glass. you have no basis to judge me in that manner. i know that you just want to be honest and that’s okay but there is a dividing line. i have worked very hard here and it aches me to see the kind of “support” i am getting.

there are a few of you that are supporting me but than there are the majority that just sit around and judge and it hurts so bad that i cry a lot at nights. i thought i had a support system… and i do in some of you. but calling me on something that you are not even a witness to is pretty premature.