i had a terrible manic episode today
i even punched a nurse, broke her glasses
i had to be sedated by two shots
it was horrible and i don’t even care to elaborate
i’m absolutely emotionally exhausted

i wish that there were things that rang true to me
i wish so badly that i didn’t have the deserve to die
i wish with all my hearts desire that i will live long enough
to go to school
to have a family
to have children
to believe in the stars of the heavens above